- adapted from tagged's journal

an entry,
just an outlet to type it all out

i never thought i would have resorted
to sharing on this 'journal'

ah, this is difficult, it has been a while,
i need to warm up.

-pause-

a lot happened since
the last i tried updating
on blogger.

i guess it's too much
to take it all in.


i had to retype this,
and focus on what exactly i need to rant.

maybe,
everything happens for a reason? maybe, just maybe.

i wish i could turn the hands of the clock
to the time when you said that
we should meet up for a date,
the very first time.

it was the night before raya,
when everything was chaotic,
i didn't wanna be in your way,
so i waited...

then there was one of the sweetest
messages, long & sincere, not forwarded
but i knew it was straight from your heart.

i knew there was just something about you,
that wasn't right..but i couldn't help myself
from starting to like you. i know this sounds as
cliche as it gets.

but
you were as good as it can get,
you never came into my reality.

maybe
you're taking your time,
maybe
i'm too selfish for asking
too much
too much just to be with you
too much just to hold you

i need an abosolution,
so why are you reading to me
all the messages that you've kept?
why am i reminded of all the memories?

if we've made it this far,
why are we still in denial?

when we know that it doesn't
feel right, when we're out with other people.
when we're just putting other hearts on the line.
why risk that but not us?

questions, but answers i don't know if i'll ever get.
i need answers, but i don't know what questions to ask.

KATE HAVNEVIK's - Unlike Me

There are no guarantees in life
Not for the present,
Nor for the future.
All I know is
That I'm here;
Don't know for how long.

I love the way
You live so intensely
Enjoy every minute of life
With space to swing
Your arms around
Laughing loudly

Unlike me
Unlike me
Do you think I'm strange?
Unlike you
Unlike you
I am not pretending

There is no time,
There is no time,
There is no time,
Time doesn't really exist.

The past, the present,
And the future,
Are all side by side,
Hand in hand.
You move and change,
Yet you go nowhere:
Everything stays the same.

You stare at me,
And ask me questions,
Makes me nervous,
This room it keeps a constant tone
While I'm on a roller coaster

Unlike me
Unlike me
Do you think I'm strange
Unlike you
Unlike you
I am not pretending

There is no time
There is no time
There is no time
Time doesn't really exist

There is no time
There is no time
There is no time
Time doesn't really exist



it's that time again.
when i realise the need to blog at 5.50am in the morning.
random rantings.

i'm still having my holidays till the 20th.
hurray for that.
here's to new beginnings and better days of
my final year in Nanyang Poly.

a lot happened since.
and
of course,
i have tons of memories to share.

good or bad,
i'll treasure them all.

i'm trying my best not to blog about this
but i can't help myself.

it's that terrible feeling that you get
when you actually like someone, finally,
after so long, then it all comes crashing down
like almost instantly.

he just had to say the things that he say.
oh how dreadful, but yes,
i anticipated it. somehow i did.

well,
i'm looking forward to better days.

another KL trip this weekend.

dear god,
i'm really not asking for much.
i know im one of ur biggest sinners,
but really,
all im asking for,
is direct me to a better place.
somewhere where i'll finally be able
to (i swear im gonna pause
for like the next 20 mins)
'settle down'

start a career.
or get a degree, perhaps.
fall in love with my only passion,
design, ARTs again.
i really, really miss you.
and
eradicate all the unnecessary.
the unnecessary stress,distractions
that i've been getting for the past few
months since the beginning of
2009.

where did I went wrong?
was it too much that i was asking for?
was it exactly what i had asked for?

i could go on and on
but ultimately,
i'm hoping for the best
that i hope to get from
all these experiences that i've had.

somehow, i've always known that
things will turn out for the better.

i promise to talk to you more often.
i promise to be less demanding and
more grateful.
i know i'll break them promises.
but for the record,
i'm keeping clean.
i'm flushing out the unnecessary junk.
i'm cleansing my soul.

it's me.
i hope you haven't forgotten about me.
good morning and thank you.






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Anyways, KL trip will be on in less than two days!
will be leaving on 12th..back on 15th or so..
so yeah :))

i'll leave with our wonderfool photos :)



and me

looking hippy trippy as sh*t :P
PEACE!

a tune to look forward to,
for the week, at least.

yesterday's day tripping,
was a fun, refreshing, new experience
massiivee,
what with my body's already
fucked up immune system :)
i should have finished the
course of antibiotics.
DANG!

anyways,
im recuperating
to the tunes of
Above n Beyond ft. Oceanlab's
I am What I am



I know you've read
So many books
You keep a breast of all the things you think you should
You've got your own home grown philosophy
And it works for you
But please don't try to make it work for me

You have nothing to prove
But you’re trying much too hard
Stop trying to change me (Stop trying to change me…)
I am what I am (I am what I am…)
No I don’t need you to save me (I don’t need you to save me…)
I am what I am (I am what I am…)

I don’t want you to show me (I don’t need you to show me…)
Because I stand where I stand (I stand where I stand…)
I just need you to know me (just need you to know me)
Just know who I am (Just know who I am…)

Just know who I am...
Just know who I am...

I know you feel
You need to prove
That you are good at something
Everything you try to do
And people have on your every word
That you deliver
With conviction
Though they may just be absurd

Leave your armor behind
Free your vulnerable mind

Stop trying to change me (Stop trying to change me…)
I am what I am (I am what I am…)
No I don’t need you to save me (I don’t need you to save me…)
I am what I am (I am what I am…)
I don’t want you to show me (I don’t need you to show me…)
Because I stand where I stand (I stand where I stand…)
I just need you to know me (just need you to know me)
Just know who I am (Just know who I am…)

Just know who I am...
Just know who I am...

DaSs♥
Ena II♥
Erika VC
James de [frog]KING
Khai
Meow
Mir-Ene VC
MiS
Mister Najib.
Najibah
Nisa
Noraa.K♥
Shi-Li VC
Shirley VC
Siti VC
Syikk♥
WeiQi

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